Maya Bensinger wrote: ↑

Sat Dec 31, 2022 4:18 pm

user-47 wrote: ↑

Sat Dec 31, 2022 1:31 pm

As for this moment, you feel like you are 100% satisfied? Or there are still some things that you didnt try with Pierre and want to give a shot?

Since the shoot, I have gone through the following phases:

(1) right after the shoot, I would have been down to keep going. Like I said, he completely dominated me and my state of mind was to stay around him and to do whatever he else he would have had in mind for me. In a sense, I expected him to ask me to stay for a few more days and when that didn’t happen, I was disappointed because I thought that I maybe hadn’t done well. I was so jealous when I realized that another girl was coming the next day and that he was shooting with her. Like I said, I kept hoping until the last moment that he would cancel his plans with the new girl and that he would ask me to stay.

(2) a few days after the shoot, I started to think that it was the worst thing I ever did and that Pierre was an asshole. That he used me.

It felt like I was snapping out of it. That I was no longer under his spell. I think that I was mostly jealous because I didn’t hear from him. I didn’t want to be just another girl for him. I wanted to be THE girl for him. In a crazy world, I would have wanted him to retire and to never ever have another shoot with anyone else lol.

(3) the pendulum is slowly swinging back and I’m feeling less emotional/jealous about things (mostly because we have been talking in the last few days and he was able to explain certain things to me).

With that said, I’m slowly asking myself what it would be like IF I was to see him again. I hate my mind but it has a life of its own.


That being said, I don’t want to exclude the possibility of doing another shoot with him … but I also don’t want to make any promises since things are still too fresh.

Sherlok wrote: ↑

Sat Dec 31, 2022 5:22 pm

We haven't seen your scene yet but I think an SMM with Pierre is perfect for you.

Jean wrote: ↑

Sat Dec 31, 2022 6:51 pm

SMM, Sado Maso Master domination game, ect,

Phelan wrote: ↑

Sat Dec 31, 2022 6:52 pm

and Pierre wears black leather gloves